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Are You Concerned About Sexual Harassment?

Have you experienced sexual harassment? Are you wondering whether what you experience is sexual harassment? Have you been accused of sexual harassment? Are you trying to investigate a case of sexual harassment? Are you concerned about friends or colleagues who are victims of sexual harassment?

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What is Sexual Harassment?

Sexual harassment is a form of illegal sex discrimination where intimidating, hostile, abusive, or offensive conduct is directed at an employee in a work place or work related setting.  The conduct can take the form of sexual conduct, but sexual harassment is not limited to such conduct.  Any abusive or offensive conduct that is directed at a woman because she is a woman (and vice versa) violates the federal and state standards.  So, for example, if a man directs violent conduct (i.e. throwing things like keys, pencils, phones) at women at least in part because they are women, such conduct is illegal.

One type of sexual harassment, Quid Pro Quo Harassment, occurs when sexual favors are requested in exchange for job opportunities.  “I will give you raise if you sleep with me.”  Another type of sexual harassment, Hostile Work Environment Harassment, occurs when the work place is altered by abusive or offensive conduct.  This occurs where another employee continually asks something like, “Hey good looking, want to look at my pornography collection in my locker.”  No one need work in such a polluted environment.

While it can be useful to learn about the legal definition of sexual harassment, it is also critical to realize that the law does not always match the experience of people. A situation that is legal and seems harmless to others can lead for some to a major life crisis, while others may be exposed to sexual harassment in the legal sense without feeling much affected.

Our goal for this website is to enhance understanding of the personal experience. From various people involved with sexual harassment we know that even when the scenarios of what happened are quite different, the experiences, and the problems and issues that need to be dealt with, can be remarkably similar.

A further goal is to contribute to informing the public about sexual harassment, and to promote the healing of those who have been hurt.

We Want to Hear From You!

We hope that this site will also be seen as an invitation. A truly accurate and informative picture of the experience of sexual harassment can only emerge if many people with different view points and experiences contribute their unique expertise. We thus very much appreciate your comments on the material presented here as well as any original contributions.

Goals

End the sexual harassment

Once a person has realized that her personal space has been violated, ending this violation becomes her first priority. Some confront the harasser; others turn to the harasser’s manager or follow the ways suggested by the sexual harassment policy. Yet others simply quit their job to escape the situation. While creating a distance between the victim and the perpetrator is certainly an important step, it usually does not automatically resolve the issue for the victim.

Stay in Job

Victims usually want to keep their current job or an equivalent position, and to continue in their chosen career path.

Come to terms with the experience

Each victim comes to term with the experience in her own unique way, but the process often involves the following observations.

  1. I need to stand up for myself.
    If I do not protect and assert my personal space, nobody will do it for me. Even if the perpetrator’s actions are illegal, it is possible that nobody will stop him unless I take steps to defend my rights.
  2. I need to find my priorities.
    Even if a victim is very assertive she will often find out that it is unrealistic that all her wishes will be granted. This does not mean that she is overly demanding. There are often conflicts between simple demands such as working in a harassment-free environment and continuing one’s career, or wanting justice and wanting to move on with one’s life.The victim needs to decide what is of primary importance to her, and act accordingly.
  3. I need to be true to myself.
    Sometimes victims set specific priorities, decide on how they will act but then cannot follow through. For example, the decision to simply bear the harassment in order to enjoy one’s career might end in failure. Victims learn to pay attention to and be honest about their feelings, teaching them what they really want and need.

Pursue Justice

When victims realize how painful their experience was (or still is), they usually want to make sure that the perpetrator will be held accountable for inappropriate behavior so that nobody else has to go through a similar experience. While this is certainly laudable, victims should realize that they are likely to encounter a lot of resistance in their search for justice, which can add to their sense of powerlessness and increase their pain even further. They should also realize that seeing the perpetrator punished may not give them the closure they desire; they still have to come to terms with the experience of powerlessness. This is not to say that victims should not pursue this issue, but they need to consider carefully if they have sufficient strength and commitment at this point, and whether this is really important to them. Since a lot of pain can be involved in this process, friends should be careful not to push a victim in this direction. One possibility to consider is to first emphasize the personal healing, and to then pursue the issue of justice with renewed strength.

Get on with life

Every victim wishes at some point during the ordeal that she could just forget about the whole thing and move on with her life. This issue cannot be pressed, however, and is not facilitated by encouragement of impatient friends. The experience has been too unsettling and painful and needs to be processed before the victim will be ready to move on. Sometimes victims are held back by the sense that they have a moral obligation to make sure that the case is properly handled, and that no other woman has to suffer as they did. While pursuing justice can feel very rewarding and give the victim a sense of making a positive contribution, the conscious choice to let go of the inflicted injustice and being able to move on with one’s life can be a very empowering experience as well.

Purpose

People involved in sexual harassment often find themselves confronted with behavior they cannot comprehend.  Victims are wondering why the harasser is behaving in a way that is so offensive to them and why they cannot get him to stop; alleged harassers are wondering why someone they trusted would turn against them and unfairly accuse them; colleagues are trying to understand why the victim did not defend herself better; partners are asking themselves why the investigation of the incidence apparently takes forever; and friends are wondering why the victim makes such a big deal of the episode instead of simply moving on with life.

Understanding Sexual Harassment

One goal for this website is to contribute to a better understanding of what goes on during a typical incidence of sexual harassment, and what motivates the behavior of the main “players”.  We are striving towards a balanced view that is fair to all the parties involved. We would hope that you, the reader, will feel encouraged to share some of your unique experiences with sexual harassment with us, because a truly accurate picture of what sexual harassment is like can emerge only if many different people with different views and expertise contribute to this site.

Building a Community For Healing

Sexual harassment can be a very painful experience, and often those involved feel isolated from their friends, colleagues, or community in general.  Our goal for this website is to provide a forum for all those concerned about sexual harassment. We want this website to be a place where they can voice their concerns, share their experiences, and find a community where they feel understood.

Educating the Public About Sexual Harassment

Finally, we hope this website can contribute to raising awareness. While many potential harassers are informed what behavior is acceptable and what is not, most do not understand how devastating the experience can be for the victim.  In other words, they realize harassment is illegal but they nevertheless consider it rather harmless.

This attitude, which also seems to resonate with the general public, cannot be changed by any policy or law.  It can only change if victims overcome their shame and speak out.  Victims honestly sharing their experiences may be the most effective way of preventing sexual harassment, or at least reducing its prevalence.

MAKING YOUR OWN CONCRETE GALOSHES

In order for all of us at CrazyCL to provide some sort of an entertainment factor that will not be frowned upon in the Internet community, this will be what can be considered the first article.  Concrete Galoshes day is the 3rd 5th day holiday conceived by my cousin Steve and I.  It was originally meant to represent the end of Summer, by encasing our feet in concrete to simulate the wearing of shoes again and the end of the shoe-less summer.  Instead, it has proven to be something much greater than that, a ritual if you must, to signify our stead-fast attitudes toward hurricanes.  You see, in Palm Beach County, there has not been a hurricane that has hit when we perform this feat.  My cousin and I get many (oh, they’re just crazy’s) when we do this.  But the fact remains that we provide a much needed protection for our homes and our cousin’s homes when we encase our feet in cement on September 5th.  

A collection of galoshes from years past.  So far this millennium, we have only missed CG’s day only twice, 2004 and 2005 and see what happened!

This 2011 Concrete Galoshes day, we shall attempt to have the ordeal LIVE on the Internet, so all can see the legend in action.

MAKING YOUR OWN CONCRETE GALOSHES

First you will have to start with some type of basic forms, cardboard boxes are traditional, but plastic boxes are acceptable.  You will need plastic bags for your feet and for your boxes(if you are using cardboard), masking or duct tape and (2) 50 or 60 pound bags of quick set concrete.  Also, you will need to gather food and drink and portable shelter and anything you may think you will need if you are unable to move for at least 6 hours.  I have made a portable biker buddy for when I have to pee, but cousin Steve just stands up and gets some rather impressive distance.  We usually have a hose, some tunes and a good supply of beer.  On September 5th, it is best to be finished pouring your concrete galoshes before dark.  Rubber gloves and shoes on your feet have proven to be a wise move as the cement has lime in it and it gets warm or even HOT as it cures.  If you plan to walk any distance wearing your cement overshoes, 2 pairs of socks would be a good idea.  My personal preference is to throw tomahawks while wearing concrete overshoes on concrete galoshes day.  Also since I make my concrete galoshes only 40 pounds each, the addition of some re-bar helps in strength.  

Now the hardest part of this endeavor, is mixing and pouring your concrete into the forms.  Help is allowed in pouring, but mixing should be done by each individual them self.  Pre made plastic forms are much easier than cardboard, but should be coated lightly with some sort of vegetable oil for easy release and reuse next year.  I will usually pour one inch of crete into each mold to start and add re-bar for the final pour.  It is not recommended using hydraulic cement solely for shoes as it expands and may crush your feet as it cooks them, but a little as an additive is ok.  As long as you are prepared before you start, the experience is not dreadful.  I like to leave my concrete galoshes on until 12 or later and remove them with a hammer and chisel.  

Do not forget to engrave the year on your galoshes while they are still wet.  They will make a fine addition to the garden when you are finished.

Enjoy your Concrete Galoshes Day on September 5th.

Oh Yeh!   Try to stay away from deep water.

My truck is possessed

My truck is possessed!  For the last 10 months my truck has full control of when I leave work each day.  I had to have my engine replaced about the middle of August of 2010 and my starter seems to have a mind of it’s own.  So far as I can figure, my starter will do absolutely nothing or it will start the engine.  I have a 13 mile stretch down a highway  and then make a right turn and go another 9 miles to get home.  My truck will take between 5 and 50 seconds to start, there is no struggling to turn over, the battery has been replaced, relays have been swapped and connections have been checked and checked again.  Now I turn the key and hold it and the truck starts when it is good and ready.  I do not know if it delays me to keep me from being in an accident or if it  has other intentions.  Either way there seem to be some weird forces at work here.  Sometimes it will go for days and start every time and sometimes it will do it every day for weeks.  My wife has named our truck Manya.

She says that Manya is a good girl, but I think she is trying to teach me a lesson for neglecting her to the point of having to replace the engine.  Once she starts, she will go all day on and off with no interruptions.  There are a few things that I have noticed over the months and they are that she will start every time if she has been off for less than 3 hours.  She will behave better if I have paid attention to her like washing or checking fluids.  And she acts up the most when she has been sitting in hot weather for over 7 hours.  My mechanic wants me to bring her in, but I am getting use to having another woman control my life.  Does that make me a bigamist?  At this point it has been amusing and sometimes comical.  I will keep everyone informed about any further bazaar happenings like talking and the such.

Vexing bourgeois conundrums

Vexing bourgeois conundrums. My friend Helen, who is expecting her first kid with her husband Niall in a few months, was telling me about the new-dad’s guide in the current issue of GQ. “Pretty funny stuff. There was one sidebar that had questions like this: Should you feed your kids organic milk (yes, particularly cause of the growth hormone they use in the U.S.) and, Do you need a Bugaboo (no), and Should you get a sleep Douala, stuff like that. And the headline was ‘Vexing bourgeois conundrums.’ That’s brilliant, that really sums it up.”

And I was reading Sandra Tsing Loh’s story in the current Atlantic Monthly about the fruit of the feminist revolution, which, she argues, is essentially a life of increased freedom from drudgery for educated, creative-class women, and, well, not a hell of a lot for the pink-collar masses who often end up in dead-end, boring, uncreative jobs out of necessity, feeding their kids convenience food and trying to budget their transportation, babysitting/daycare, work clothes and other costs from the now-mythic nickel-and-dimed paycheck.

The cover line “Feminism’s dirty little secret,” sums up Loh’s argument that feminism trumped class struggle and that the big family/career-sphere payoff from the movement (increased educational and career opportunities–as well as the ability to turn one’s back on them and choose to go back home to raise babies and go to Pilates classes, do crafts with the kids etc) benefited educated, professional women. Work like crazy or decompress? A vexing bourgeois conundrum, definitely one many of our mothers (and many of our peers) were not/are not lucky enough to face.

I find myself in the vexing bourgeois conundrum of thinking: should I keep yammering on about the Seinfeld-esque incidents that make up the bulk of my family life for pay, or should I maybe give it a rest? Put up my feet, watch some more Flight of the Conchords, write less and say more etc etc. Oh, and do more crafts with the Little Nutball (the Pete Doherty-like blood painting was a classic in the Nutball’s developing oeuvre, and we need to spin that out a bit more to see where it goes), read together, sit in the shade with the hens, etc. The latter appeals to me right now.

Thanks for tuning in. Now I’m going outside.

Some Benefits of Exercise

“And when you are finished with one task, still labor hard.”  Holy Quran

“Today I will do what others won’t, so tomorrow I can accomplish what others can’t.”  Jerry Rice

This is a post about Exercise. I have written before about the benefits of working out 7 days per week. I really try to get in my daily work out even with a hectic schedule. By all means I work out 6 days per week with isometric exercise, but shoot for seven. Most people use the same excuse of not having enough time to exercise. I say right on, there isn’t enough time that’s why you must make the time! You think you are busy, let me give you my schedule. First of all I am a husband and father of two. I work full time as a Senior Accountant. I also have an accounting business. I am also a graduate student working on my MBA. I am also an Associate Imam at my mosque where I give regular khutbahs and classes. I can go on, but I think you get the point. What gives me the energy to do all of this?

Alhamdulillah, I thank him for the energy and vigor. I feel great about life. I am happy, healthy, and grateful for everything Allah (SWT) has blessed me with. When you start exercising at least 6 days per week, you will find that you have more energy to accomplish more in other areas of your life. I remember when I wasn’t exercising but only a couple of days per week and eating a poor diet. My life was FULL of drama. My relationship with my family was mediocre; I was tired all the time and struggling with school and work. Each day I woke up and went to work, I was ready for the day to be over with.

Every Friday I would be saying along with the others; Thank God It’s Friday (TGIF). Now I say; Thank God I’m Focused! When I began to work out more and eat better, everything in my life began to come together easily. The more consistent I was with my workouts; more opportunities came my way, my relationships got better, and my confidence increased. I became more assertive and the drama faded away. It took me a while to put 2 and 2 together.

Try exercising daily, eating WHOLE foods, cut out the caffeine and watch and see. You too will become more assertive, walk with Halal Swagger, gain more confidence and most importantly become more productive. You will find that you don’t need to sleep 8 or more hours every day. You will no longer wake up feeling sluggish and running for the coffee pot or tea bag. If you don’t have time to make it to a gym or cant afford it; there are some great dvds for purchase. Also there are callisthenic exercises one can do in the comfort of their home. You can also go for a run three to four times per week.

The main thing is that you must sweat and get your heart rate up daily. Life can be incredible! You too can go through life with energy and vigor every day. You don’t have to have “on and off” days. Start exercising daily and everyday will be a great day. Even the days you have challenges (notice how I didn’t say problems), your exercise and proper diet will give you the strength of mind and confidence to tackle them and find solutions. Allah wants the believers to have the energy and enthusiasm to enjoy life, every day of their life. “And seek with what Allah has given you the hereafter; but don’t neglect your share of this world.” Holy Qur’an.

Reactions

Denial/Trivializing

In the beginning, victims often trivialize the behavior (“He is just trying to be funny.”) and they deny how it makes them feel (“Why should I be bothered? I will just ignore him.”). Sooner or later the victim will usually have to face the truth, which is that they do not find the behavior funny but are bothered by it, and that they do not manage to ignore the guy.

Emotional Numbness

After a shocking experience (realizing one’s powerlessness) one sometimes feels emotionally numb. Events that usually would trigger strong emotions are suddenly looked at from a purely rational perspective.

Guilt

Often the victim is advised by friends not to blame herself for what has happened. Equally often the victim is unable to put this well-meant advice into practice.

It is important to understand that the victim faces a very difficult dilemma: if she is not to blame for what has happened, how can she ensure that it will never happen again? By blaming herself she can avoid facing her own powerlessness.  As a result, victims are often not very picky when it comes to finding a long list of reasons why they are to blame. Friends can help her to determine that some items on the list are not entirely convincing: “If I didn’t take the early train to work I never would have met that guy and it would never have happened.” Other items on the list may be more open to debate: “That guy always made me uncomfortable. I should not have agreed to meet him late at night at his office for a meeting.” It is important that the victim evaluates carefully any potential contribution to the events. She can then decide to adjust her behavior in the future, allowing her to feel in control that this experience will not repeat. However, she does not need to feel guilty about her behavior in the past once she realizes that she acted like this only because she was not fully aware of how negative the consequences could be. (She may have expected moments of discomfort, but not THIS). Once she sees that her action was based on ignorance, she will probably find it easy to forgive herself.

Fear/Distrust

The victim is usually afraid that the harassment will continue, or, if she is far away from the harasser, that another person will start harassing her.  It is difficult for her to trust anyone.

Negotiating

Victims often look at their problem in a very rational way. Negotiations of the type: “If I do not complain, can I continue my career?” can help her to find a solution and to regain control over the situation. Even if they don’t seem to lead anywhere, they help by clarifying priorities.

Rage/Anger/Frustration

The experience of powerlessness often triggers rage, anger and frustration.

Sadness

When the anger and rage ease off, victims often feel deep sadness.

Forgiveness/Generosity

Sometimes victims come to a point where they forgive the harasser.  This is often the case if the victim realizes that her problems are mostly related to her experiencing powerlessness, and not to the specific harassment she experienced (a car accident may have triggered a similar response). Finding the generosity within to forgive the harasser and to let go of the hurt can be an empowering choice.

Assertiveness/Selfdefense

After working through the experience, victims often decide to change their strategies for interactions with harassers.  Rather than ignoring the behavior, they assert themselves and confront the harasser.

Proactivity

While the experience of powerlessness is still valid, victims often realize that they are not powerless about everything.  They can affect the world around them, at least in small ways. For example, the victim might decide to speak out about her experience, to increase awareness and to be available as a support person for others who go through a similar crisis.

Employer

Goals

The general goal of the employer is to represent what s/he perceives as the interests of the institution.

Avoid Litigation

One of the primary goals is to avoid litigation, because litigation and possibly losing a court case are very expensive, and also negatively affect the reputation of the institution.

Avoid Scandal

The employer will like to keep a low profile. Any media coverage, for instance, will jeopardize the reputation of the institution.

Save Resources (Money, Time)

The employer needs to wisely allocate the resources of the institution, and will try to minimize the cost of the investigation.

Keep Successful Employees

The employer will be reluctant to give up on employees crucial to the success of the enterprise.

Be Consistent With Mission and Institutional Culture

Consistent with the mission of the institution, the employer is likely to be biased either towards the victim or the alleged harasser. If having a harassment-free, women-friendly workplace is high on the list, the employer may try to get rid of a “morally sick harasser”, and will be biased against the alleged harasser. If the quality of work is more important, the employer may hope to keep a top-notch employee that is crucial to the success of the institution. In this case, the employer will probably be biased against a “mentally unstable troublemaker”.  Any such bias towards the alleged harasser or the victim may have a much larger impact on the outcome of an investigation than the facts.

(Re-)actions

Legal Outlook

Trying to avoid a law suit, employers rarely follow their gut feelings, but they are directed in every action by the institution’s lawyers. This often eliminates straightforward and honest communication, and makes it very difficult to find satisfactory informal solutions to the conflict.

Being Diplomatic

Trying to avoid litigation or a scandal, employers will try hard to keep both parties satisfied, and make them feel like they receive all the support they need.  He or she may try to calm them down, by saying to the victim: “We are sorry this happened. We will take care of the situation and make sure this will not happen again.” and to the alleged harasser: “We trust you 100%. We are sure the issue can be solved in a way that is satisfactory for everybody.”
Delaying or slowing down an investigation may also be a good strategy, as this may wear the parties out, and makes them less likely to fight the outcome of the investigation.

Determining Resources For Investigation

One way in which an employer may bias the outcome of an investigation is by determining the resources assigned to the investigation. For example, he or she may appoint a staff member who is not sufficiently trained and does not have much clout within the institution and is thus unlikely to turn up compelling evidence.

Intimidation &Threats

Employers sometimes use their power by intimidating or threatening victims, investigators, or anyone whose actions might cause an undesired outcome.

Isolate Victim or Harasser

Employers will usually discourage that the parties involved talk to anyone about the incidence. While neither the victim nor the alleged harasser usually feel like talking about the experience with many people, their silence can also create a sense of isolation. This can lead to a lack of support later  when they want to fight what they perceive as an injust decision. In fact, the employer’s bias (towards victim or alleged harasser) can often be determined by looking at who is temporarily removed from the workplace (while the investigation lasts).

Investigator

Goals

Represent Interests of Employer

The investigator is in most cases hired/employed by the institution in which the harassment allegedly occurred. The primary interest of an investigator thus is to represent the interests of the employer.

Fair Investigation

Most investigators will hold themselves also to an internal standard, and try to conduct an investigation that is fair to all parties.

Personal Satisfaction

Most investigators will want to get satisfaction out of how they deal with the situation.  Investigators may have a personal bias and they may hope that “their party” wins. For example, a feminist investigator may somehow bias the investigation towards the victim while a member of the “old-boys-club” might inadvertently favor the alleged harasser.

Limit Work

The investigator typically has other important responsibilities in addition to the investigation, and will thus try to limit the amount of time and effort that goes into the investigation to the necessary minimum.

(RE-)actions

Slow Investigation

A slow investigation has several advantages.  It limits the workload of the investigator, and it will emotionally wear out both the victim and the alleged harasser, thus making it less likely that they will fight the outcome of the investigation. The initial “temporary” solution (e.g., leave of absence for victim or alleged harasser) often becomes the new status quo.

Superficial Investigation

If the investigator or employer is biased towards the alleged harasser, a superficial investigation is unlikely to uncover undesirable evidence.

Acceptable Investigation

Investigations often become suddenly more serious if one of the parties hires a lawyer, because then the employer and the investigator have a strong interest in avoiding obvious flaws in the investigation.

Thorough Investigation

The main reason for conducting a very thorough investigation is a personal commitment of the employer and/or investigator.  However, even highly motivated investigators cannot be effective if the employer does not truly support their efforts.  Also, the investigation is made difficult if the investigator is not sufficiently trained for the job, or is not perceived as sufficiently powerful within the organization.

Friends/Colleagues

Experience

Friends and colleagues may go through an experience which is similar in some aspects to the experience of the victim or the alleged harasser (depending on who they identify with).

Powerlessness

Friends and colleagues can also experience powerlessness.  First, they might empathize with the victim (or alleged harasser) and thus feel their powerlessness in the situation for themselves. In addition, they often are acutely aware of their own powerlessness in helping their friend/colleague.

Goals

Support Friend/Colleague

They want to help the friend or colleague who is having troubles.

Process Own Reactions to Powerlessness

Friends and colleagues also need to deal with their own experience of powerlessness.

Reactions

Disbelief

At first, many friends and colleagues have a hard time believing the allegations: “He seems like such a nice person.”  While denial is a typical first reaction for victims as well, they usually will find themselves forced to move on and accept and deal with the experience.

Trivializing

Friends and colleagues may comment: “Why do you need to make such a big deal of this? Just ignore the guy!” This again mirrors a typical reaction of victims. But while a victim of harassment has an experience that she will eventually be unable to ignore, only very openminded and sensitive friends/colleagues will be able to see that “making a big deal of it” is not a voluntary choice but is an authentic reaction to her experience.

Fear

Friends and colleagues often fear retaliation if they openly support a victim or alleged harasser. Sometimes they discourage a victim who wants a confrontation because they are afraid the harasser will become violent and will lash out against them as well.

Moralistic

Some friends and colleagues urge the victim to come forward, and point out that they have a moral obligation to do so, or else the harasser might hurt other victims as well.

Blame

Some friends and colleagues find that the harassment was the victims own fault.  Perhaps if the victim had dressed in a more conservative way, the harassment would never have happened.

Distance

Many do not want to be involved with people that go through a crisis.  They find them exhausting to be with or are simply bored in their presence.

Dominant

Some friends or colleagues seem to know exactly what needs to be done to improve the situation. This allows them to feel in charge of the situation, and not to accept their own powerlessness.  While victims are often grateful for someone who tells them what to do,  it can further increase their sense of powerlessness, since the friend essentially signals that they are unable to control the situation themselves.

Supportive

Some friends and colleagues are able to listen to the experience of victims without telling them what they should do/should have done.  These friends and colleagues are an important resource for the victim to clarify her own experience and find out what she wants to do about it.